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Ariege and i are talking about being lesbians (well, i am) minus the hugging kissing and sex, because that would freak me out. I'm sure everyone who used to see us together always (mostly at fayes) thought we were lesbians. It would be easier than now...ish.
I'm such a wuss, PUNK.
Yesterday saw my uncle play in London with Jack, was wellllll good. This dude who looked a bit nerdish played and one his songs had such good lyrics so i actually got some...ovaries, and talked to him.
My uncle BLATE rocked, in a mellow way. He was a bit happy, seeing as he told my dad that i was the only member of the family to actually GO see him play. That's horrible (father if you still read this, go see your brother play-he is working for you and all) I asked him if he was nervous and he said he kinda was, which shocked me because i was joking. Then he said it was because playing in front of a concert crowd is easier than a small group, because the bigger crowd really gets into it, which i get.


Anyway... I want to talk to Jolyon.

"blah blah o no, this person is this....so therefore this cant happen"
if i wasnt so censored on this freaking thing maybe i could make more sense AND be more obvious.
Billie invited me to something tonight, so i texted her and she sent this communal text back telling everyone it was cancelled-thanks love, i didnt even want to go anyway-you knew that...o crap maybe i should go to maidstone.
noooo.

Charlotte and i talked on the phone today, weird and straight to some sort of point, which made me angry, actually. i thought the whole time, it was ME. (ok maybe relief (no not really) and not anger) I'll call her again some other day, when i get confused again.
ive been watching fight club every night,
argh, i mean its not the first thing you think of before you step into it, is it?



this just doesnt make sense, i shouldnt even post it, but whatev.
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o yeah, steven asked me to read christina rossetti's the convenant something, the covenant threshold, espesh the 5th and 6th stanza, someone please read it for me and tell me what the point of me reading it would be.