BUT just because im having a good time doesnt man in neccessarily happy. My emotions are so messed up right now, it could drive me crazy.
Today was the best and the worst. The snowboarding was so hard but we completed it. James an, mat and i went on a ski lift with our boards, so much scarier tha with skis At the end i panicked and left the ski left too late, i literally had to ift my self up and jump, hrt my knee realy bad. When i looked beind me, they each jumped off and we were all sprawled on the floor, was funny, except the ski guy was like "GET UP!" making me panic.
we finished and went tubing, (going down this mutha hill tht they smooth in a rubber inner tube.) IT WAS SO FUN. i screamed the whole time, like "WHOOOO YEAH" even though it wasnt that fun.
but i gotso cold we had to stop.Devaki had to massage my feet in the nearest cafe. She was afraid i had frostbite, and they still feel weird no so i hope nothings rong with them. I nearly cried from the pain (therefore it REALLY hurt)
(look at ALL my caps locks and over emphasis!)
o im not happy. O yeah devaki and thomas went down in the tubing (you can go in groups, so me mat, ani, jam, and keiran went together) they were the fastest people ever and crashed into barriers waaaay far away.
anyway yes, not happy, im going to cry my eyes out when leaving friday night/sat morn. I have no desire to come back to england. maybe one, but im trying to repress that one.
i hate this, i hate this so much i just dont want to go back to uni and cant wait for a reunion in the caribbean in february, and then saving up to come back for august.
I also feel really very sick from the exessiveness of today, cant bend my fingers
Friday, December 29, 2006
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
but i still, havent found, what im looking for.
went snow boarding today, wasnt really looking forward to it. thank goodness mathew came along. (cousin) the instructor was duuuh. i had to help my sister most of the time, then when it was my turn he just flirted, got paid to flirt with two boys and two girls then just ran off. he was from london, so go figure.
anielia dropped her board. ok i'll explain.
i shuffle off to put on my board after a run, anielia: "WHERE YA GOIN'?" I explain that the snow is flatter so i wont slide down as im doing up the catch on the board. so she comes towards me then drops her board down (enabling it to slide freely down the hill) she attempts a run and it falls into some trees near us. I run into the trees and im THIGH deep in snow (was so fun but when it gets up your elbows it stings like a barbie) managed to climb out with help from the snowboard (like Eskimo ski shoes i'''t) i walk back up, and tell anielia to go down. as i walk up my board starts to slide, hits a barrier a'ok.
THEN from where i dont know anielias board gets loose again. It slides down our hill, breaks through the barrier into the expert skiers hill, then jumps off the side of the cliff. I go to investigate. "Rather die" i proclaim, "than fecth that thing." This snow was deeper than before. Its like a forest immersed in snow, but if you walked in it youd be swallowed up. I cant explain, its was really deep, the snow made it less deep, but yeah. We call the people, they tell us we have to get it. Mathew goes down, everyone else is like lalalala, doesnt realise how scary it is, im standing at the edge of this cliff terrified for him. At the end hes all exhausted and red and sweating, having had to climb up a mountain basically with just the use of snowboard and really light snow.
My bum is bruised. on christmas we went to the field outside their house, we did snow skating which is like sledding/tobogganing. James made the BEST run.
He packed all this ice together at the bottom so when you hit it with the sled, youd jump into the air. I was the only one who really did it, i went so fast i got so much air and i landed really hard, (i was using a really hard plastic sphere) i nearly cried from pain and laughing, i hit my spine so hard ive still got a headache where it knocked my skull/brain whatev. so fun though, then he added one half way through, everytime i hit it i sounded like i was being sick (delish)
ahhh best holiday. he added another one near the top too. Hes a genius. it was so much fun, its snowing again now so hopefully itll be really thick when we go again tomoro (after more boarding) why am i typing this (you ask) for myself (i say)
my biggest fear is forgetting things, thats why i take so many pictures/write everything down.
o yeah yesterday we also went to a cabin for christmas, on the way there we played this music, really meaningless music to me. I have NO point to make (or one that i feel i want people to read) ANYWAY
i have pink floyd in my head and some song about capatalising on this good fortune, and u2 urgh.
Thomas: did you fall down a lot?
matdana: we scaled the city walls, we scaaaaled the city walls.
Thomas: what did you do?
matdana: we ran through the fields, only to be with you....only to be, with you.
Thomas: did you enjoy it?
matdana: but we still, havent found, what we're looking for.
nytz, the similarities between mathew and i and mathew and the nest friends ive had are eerie.
eerie indiana, i loved that show.
gonne play ds.
anielia dropped her board. ok i'll explain.
i shuffle off to put on my board after a run, anielia: "WHERE YA GOIN'?" I explain that the snow is flatter so i wont slide down as im doing up the catch on the board. so she comes towards me then drops her board down (enabling it to slide freely down the hill) she attempts a run and it falls into some trees near us. I run into the trees and im THIGH deep in snow (was so fun but when it gets up your elbows it stings like a barbie) managed to climb out with help from the snowboard (like Eskimo ski shoes i'''t) i walk back up, and tell anielia to go down. as i walk up my board starts to slide, hits a barrier a'ok.
THEN from where i dont know anielias board gets loose again. It slides down our hill, breaks through the barrier into the expert skiers hill, then jumps off the side of the cliff. I go to investigate. "Rather die" i proclaim, "than fecth that thing." This snow was deeper than before. Its like a forest immersed in snow, but if you walked in it youd be swallowed up. I cant explain, its was really deep, the snow made it less deep, but yeah. We call the people, they tell us we have to get it. Mathew goes down, everyone else is like lalalala, doesnt realise how scary it is, im standing at the edge of this cliff terrified for him. At the end hes all exhausted and red and sweating, having had to climb up a mountain basically with just the use of snowboard and really light snow.
My bum is bruised. on christmas we went to the field outside their house, we did snow skating which is like sledding/tobogganing. James made the BEST run.
He packed all this ice together at the bottom so when you hit it with the sled, youd jump into the air. I was the only one who really did it, i went so fast i got so much air and i landed really hard, (i was using a really hard plastic sphere) i nearly cried from pain and laughing, i hit my spine so hard ive still got a headache where it knocked my skull/brain whatev. so fun though, then he added one half way through, everytime i hit it i sounded like i was being sick (delish)
ahhh best holiday. he added another one near the top too. Hes a genius. it was so much fun, its snowing again now so hopefully itll be really thick when we go again tomoro (after more boarding) why am i typing this (you ask) for myself (i say)
my biggest fear is forgetting things, thats why i take so many pictures/write everything down.
o yeah yesterday we also went to a cabin for christmas, on the way there we played this music, really meaningless music to me. I have NO point to make (or one that i feel i want people to read) ANYWAY
i have pink floyd in my head and some song about capatalising on this good fortune, and u2 urgh.
Thomas: did you fall down a lot?
matdana: we scaled the city walls, we scaaaaled the city walls.
Thomas: what did you do?
matdana: we ran through the fields, only to be with you....only to be, with you.
Thomas: did you enjoy it?
matdana: but we still, havent found, what we're looking for.
nytz, the similarities between mathew and i and mathew and the nest friends ive had are eerie.
eerie indiana, i loved that show.
gonne play ds.
Monday, December 25, 2006
canada
I cant remember being THIS happy or enjoying myself this much. I actually dont want to leave and am really close to asking my parents to extend my stay a bit. The reason i didnt want to stay past new years was kinda cos i didnt want to miss things with people, but i actually dont care anymore. would much rather prefer to just hang out here. we played the wii, that was like the least fun (which shows how great this place is as it was AWESOME) ive fallen in love with their cats, and now they lick me everytime i sleep. i actually feel sad thinking ill be one this time next week. ill be in england at some crappy house party. ugh.
we went to church today, even they have heard of my uncle and his band, was cool. we just walk into shops and their posters are there.
fallen in love with this place, even if the snow wasnt here it would still be great, we just came back from sledding and making snow angels and crap snowmen and racing down hills. i love my cousins, never met them before but we get along really well....weirdly. think theyre rushing me off to do someting with their inlaws,. i fell sad i dont miss england only miss a couple people, how lame is that. i wish they were here with me.
i reallywant a pet.
ahh look how lame i have become, its because this place is so great.
be happy those few i care about
xxxxxxxxxxxx#
(o i just thought about england and all the people i really dont want to see...ok sad again)
we went to church today, even they have heard of my uncle and his band, was cool. we just walk into shops and their posters are there.
fallen in love with this place, even if the snow wasnt here it would still be great, we just came back from sledding and making snow angels and crap snowmen and racing down hills. i love my cousins, never met them before but we get along really well....weirdly. think theyre rushing me off to do someting with their inlaws,. i fell sad i dont miss england only miss a couple people, how lame is that. i wish they were here with me.
i reallywant a pet.
ahh look how lame i have become, its because this place is so great.
be happy those few i care about
xxxxxxxxxxxx#
(o i just thought about england and all the people i really dont want to see...ok sad again)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
i wish i was in Laguna Beach
it's my last day/night in england and im spending it alone in the house( with my brother)
it would have been a really good day if i hadnt come home, we went to blue water and everything.
im not even looking forward to going anymore.
but then again dont want to stay here either. i have to read out something for some extended family somewhere for his presentaion, my aunt couldnt be arsed so asked me to do it when i was at uni, now she can do it but shes still making me do it. My dad just shouted at me "if you didnt want to do it why didnt you say so?"
i did.
he also shouted at me for saying he gave me the printouts with the info i had to read. If giving your daughter something is 'laying them on her suitcase when she comes back from uni but has gone out for the day and night and then moving them somewhere else and not telling her what or where they are'-then he gave them to me and im severly retarded.
i think ariege is calling me, my phone is messed up. i want to go out tonight but i have -35 in my account (and no overdraft) and im tired and in a bad mood.
my friends totally suck.
(from newstead)
(in my year)
im so bored of this. i actually want to go back to uni now. at least people dont steal from me there (yes, still not over it) and i dont have people raising their voices at me and shouting my name every second.
argh theres no way im living in england the rest of my life
it would have been a really good day if i hadnt come home, we went to blue water and everything.
im not even looking forward to going anymore.
but then again dont want to stay here either. i have to read out something for some extended family somewhere for his presentaion, my aunt couldnt be arsed so asked me to do it when i was at uni, now she can do it but shes still making me do it. My dad just shouted at me "if you didnt want to do it why didnt you say so?"
i did.
he also shouted at me for saying he gave me the printouts with the info i had to read. If giving your daughter something is 'laying them on her suitcase when she comes back from uni but has gone out for the day and night and then moving them somewhere else and not telling her what or where they are'-then he gave them to me and im severly retarded.
i think ariege is calling me, my phone is messed up. i want to go out tonight but i have -35 in my account (and no overdraft) and im tired and in a bad mood.
my friends totally suck.
(from newstead)
(in my year)
im so bored of this. i actually want to go back to uni now. at least people dont steal from me there (yes, still not over it) and i dont have people raising their voices at me and shouting my name every second.
argh theres no way im living in england the rest of my life
Monday, December 18, 2006
christmas
today is christmas day in our house.
well actually at about 7. hum ho hum
thats all i guess.
i cant be bothered with packing and flights, just wanna transport there then transport back.
this episode of scrubs is really good. where janitor dates elliot and jd does the right thing and loses out anyway lalala
james and i have decided to name our first born Shao Kahn.
i miss games, i want a wii but then i dont, it just looks interesting but the games look crap.
lalalalala good time sunday night, better when a certain person left (no one knows him anyway so lalala)
ariege have a new years party.
everythings complicated.
i went to a party on friday and this pratt stole some stuff from me and from other people, ive just thouht about it again and im so angry. and the person that knows him is just letting it slide, arrghhhh its not even important apart from the fact i have no money, and this pratt stole the last of the money i had. ARGJH.
anyway off to see my cuz.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
finahalee
http://controversiart.blogspot.com/
2000 words and a shorthand test to go. My temporary phone has died. Insert sim card and sim card rejected. Hello i want to scream, ive been using you lovingly for weeks. (except insert screaming and voice boxes breaking) (voice box, i only have one)
im sick of computers and technology. Im so glad i have a watch.
ian bought me comics for my birthday, im going to make food (ive been in this same seat for the last 9 hours with no food) (come on father thats an achievement, ive been working)
and sit down and read friendly neighbourhood spiderman.
uhhh i hate this city. My glasses do nothing. someone pretend to be me and get my money back.
2000 words and a shorthand test to go. My temporary phone has died. Insert sim card and sim card rejected. Hello i want to scream, ive been using you lovingly for weeks. (except insert screaming and voice boxes breaking) (voice box, i only have one)
im sick of computers and technology. Im so glad i have a watch.
ian bought me comics for my birthday, im going to make food (ive been in this same seat for the last 9 hours with no food) (come on father thats an achievement, ive been working)
and sit down and read friendly neighbourhood spiderman.
uhhh i hate this city. My glasses do nothing. someone pretend to be me and get my money back.
STRESS
Yesterday was the most work related stressful day of my life.
ALL my work got lost for radio, hours of editing. So i had to do it again. Then it got lost. So i had to painstakingly do it AGAIN.
Then i had to do shakires,(twice) then hyguettes, then elizabeths. I missed out on the editing lesson while these people didnt. arrrghhhh. Also something that annoys me is the fact they are going to get a better grade than me, though i did all their work. (The people i interviewed were IDIOTS. "o are there cuts to the nhs? thats all i have to say." "i think its a bad idea" me-"can you explain why its a bad idea?" "nah, i just think it is")
i should have done what everyone else did and asked about celebrities or something, i forgot i hated people.
Then our video group-disaster, dont even want to talk about it. I was so tense i got a massive headache. This uni is so crap- we're paying for something, but its not going anywhere, cant really make a video when the sound equipment is CRAP.
I managed to do 500 words though. Then just crashed in the apple mac room and lay there. Nereasha and i went to the plough to get food. I had 'saved' £5 up cos my flatmates wanted a christmas meal, then someone told me it wasnt happening. So i went to the plough. We ate, i kept zoning out-thats what lack of sleep and no food does to you. Sometimes conversations are boring. I stared at people for a while. I was staring so much and not realising what i was looking at, that when i kinda resumed consciousness, i realised i was staring at 2 boys making out. Then this loud bang was heard. I turned around and a girl playign pool earlier, was just lying on the floor with the cue in her hands. Just-lying -there. I ate my chips and watched.
Her eyes were open. I thought she was an idiot, you dont just lay there when yu're capable of moving, just get up. She finally got up after pretending to be dead or whatever. pssh attention seekers. She was believable though, fell quite stiff and right on her face. Must have hurt her chest-lalala.
My flat mates looked at me in pity when i walked in. I paid £2.35 and got desert. I talked to sophie who i never see. We walked back to the plough because i wanted to win a snowboard, then walked back. dan castrated and i had a massive discussion on why at the end of year 13, chloe (outcasts-my group) angered stef (her old best friend) so much that vito (stefs bf) punched dan and mona (my best girl friend) and then got a restarining order put on her.
My rooms a mess. Im in the library.
i only have 3500 words to go!
This time next week i'll be en route a la canada. i cant wait to see my sister. I actually get nervous/sick thinking about it
(im not freakishly obsessed with my siblings, im just very close to them. The only version of homesick i get (minus trinidad) is missing them)
macs are cool
ALL my work got lost for radio, hours of editing. So i had to do it again. Then it got lost. So i had to painstakingly do it AGAIN.
Then i had to do shakires,(twice) then hyguettes, then elizabeths. I missed out on the editing lesson while these people didnt. arrrghhhh. Also something that annoys me is the fact they are going to get a better grade than me, though i did all their work. (The people i interviewed were IDIOTS. "o are there cuts to the nhs? thats all i have to say." "i think its a bad idea" me-"can you explain why its a bad idea?" "nah, i just think it is")
i should have done what everyone else did and asked about celebrities or something, i forgot i hated people.
Then our video group-disaster, dont even want to talk about it. I was so tense i got a massive headache. This uni is so crap- we're paying for something, but its not going anywhere, cant really make a video when the sound equipment is CRAP.
I managed to do 500 words though. Then just crashed in the apple mac room and lay there. Nereasha and i went to the plough to get food. I had 'saved' £5 up cos my flatmates wanted a christmas meal, then someone told me it wasnt happening. So i went to the plough. We ate, i kept zoning out-thats what lack of sleep and no food does to you. Sometimes conversations are boring. I stared at people for a while. I was staring so much and not realising what i was looking at, that when i kinda resumed consciousness, i realised i was staring at 2 boys making out. Then this loud bang was heard. I turned around and a girl playign pool earlier, was just lying on the floor with the cue in her hands. Just-lying -there. I ate my chips and watched.
Her eyes were open. I thought she was an idiot, you dont just lay there when yu're capable of moving, just get up. She finally got up after pretending to be dead or whatever. pssh attention seekers. She was believable though, fell quite stiff and right on her face. Must have hurt her chest-lalala.
My flat mates looked at me in pity when i walked in. I paid £2.35 and got desert. I talked to sophie who i never see. We walked back to the plough because i wanted to win a snowboard, then walked back. dan castrated and i had a massive discussion on why at the end of year 13, chloe (outcasts-my group) angered stef (her old best friend) so much that vito (stefs bf) punched dan and mona (my best girl friend) and then got a restarining order put on her.
My rooms a mess. Im in the library.
i only have 3500 words to go!
This time next week i'll be en route a la canada. i cant wait to see my sister. I actually get nervous/sick thinking about it
(im not freakishly obsessed with my siblings, im just very close to them. The only version of homesick i get (minus trinidad) is missing them)
macs are cool
Saturday, December 09, 2006
o i dont feel very well
i must have been home hours now, came home walked around bromley a bit then crashed. Woken up and been eating fruit but still feel tres horrible.
Im going to canada on the 20th-30th of December. I am more excited than i am making out, just-
so-
damn-
sick. (yeah shatner-esque)
uuurrgrghhh.
i dont know whether im more excited about going to canda, skiing in canada, meeting my cousins for the first time who i talk to a lot anyway, seeing my sister for the first time in over a year, hanging out with just my sibs in the freezing cold, or just getting away from england.
whatever it is, i am very excited. Bookings are ticked i nearly typed, then decided to type it anyway-yeah you get me.
Had a REALLY good night last night, me, a english person, a french person and 2 russians. If someone told me that "on friday night you'll be sitting round a cold table talking to this group of people, you'll eat cheese and crackers and bread and they will be drinking wine and cognac and rum and as the night progresses their english will steadily get worse and harder to understand" then i would say, nope, let me be. But it was excellent. We talked til about nearly 1. even the food selection was nice.
Was really relaxing and just nice i guess.
anyway ive got
500 words for tuesday
1200 words for thursday
2000 words for Friday. (+ editing our video monday and editing my radio package for tuesday)
I said it more than once and i'll scream it again, i cant wait for this horrible last week to be over.Its weird to be home. I saw james in kfc in bromley, that was nice.
O man i dont want to go back to uni.
i really dont feel well.
(sings) i wanna be the very best, that no one ever was...
Im going to canada on the 20th-30th of December. I am more excited than i am making out, just-
so-
damn-
sick. (yeah shatner-esque)
uuurrgrghhh.
i dont know whether im more excited about going to canda, skiing in canada, meeting my cousins for the first time who i talk to a lot anyway, seeing my sister for the first time in over a year, hanging out with just my sibs in the freezing cold, or just getting away from england.
whatever it is, i am very excited. Bookings are ticked i nearly typed, then decided to type it anyway-yeah you get me.
Had a REALLY good night last night, me, a english person, a french person and 2 russians. If someone told me that "on friday night you'll be sitting round a cold table talking to this group of people, you'll eat cheese and crackers and bread and they will be drinking wine and cognac and rum and as the night progresses their english will steadily get worse and harder to understand" then i would say, nope, let me be. But it was excellent. We talked til about nearly 1. even the food selection was nice.
Was really relaxing and just nice i guess.
anyway ive got
500 words for tuesday
1200 words for thursday
2000 words for Friday. (+ editing our video monday and editing my radio package for tuesday)
I said it more than once and i'll scream it again, i cant wait for this horrible last week to be over.Its weird to be home. I saw james in kfc in bromley, that was nice.
O man i dont want to go back to uni.
i really dont feel well.
(sings) i wanna be the very best, that no one ever was...
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
a little black number.
I did work last night, nearly finished my online project which is to just make a blog on this site and fill It up. ive only done 2 posts on banksy and emin. i need 2 more. gar.
Cate picked me up last night, we bought dessert and went to Michelle's house (Jared's older sister who got married, used to be in orpington, taught me for a while, mother hates me, the feeling is mutual, jared came to England yesterday morn)
We had chinese and desert and talked. It was fun, got a bit tired, until Geoff (her husb) and i got carried away talking about snatch. They asked what my favourite movie was, and everyone else said, "the notebook," "love actually" "blah crap blah." I sat there trying to think of a good lie, but in the end i just went,
well i guess its not really a good (church wise) movie to like, but my favourite is snatch. Then Geoff and i spent about an hour laughing over the quotes while michelle and cate looked on and laughed politely.
The only bits i can remember except for the food,
Geoff - "yeah i was in the SAS, but you have to kill people, so i quit and now im in HR."
Geoff - "i have to make sure everyone is comfortable so i have these meetings with managers. After one about cultural diversity, the guy leans over to me and says "o i just got this joke in an email.'" (i cant remember the joke properly to tell it, but something about guy ritchie with-holding madonnas credit cards because when he told her to go out and find a little black number, yeah etc)
All of a sudden i feel nervous and sick. I cant wait for the next week and a half to be over (hopefully with my work being done.)
If anyone has any art they like or an artist that is considered 'controversial' id really really appreciate it if you could tell me their names, you'd be helping me pass my first year.
o yeah 16th december lloyds apparently, but this wont happen as EVERYONE will have filled it out, theres like 16 facebook groups about it...not 16 i said 16 before so its in my head now. "the voice inside my 'eeeeeaaaaaaad."
"I hate this city."
senses fail?
Cate picked me up last night, we bought dessert and went to Michelle's house (Jared's older sister who got married, used to be in orpington, taught me for a while, mother hates me, the feeling is mutual, jared came to England yesterday morn)
We had chinese and desert and talked. It was fun, got a bit tired, until Geoff (her husb) and i got carried away talking about snatch. They asked what my favourite movie was, and everyone else said, "the notebook," "love actually" "blah crap blah." I sat there trying to think of a good lie, but in the end i just went,
well i guess its not really a good (church wise) movie to like, but my favourite is snatch. Then Geoff and i spent about an hour laughing over the quotes while michelle and cate looked on and laughed politely.
The only bits i can remember except for the food,
Geoff - "yeah i was in the SAS, but you have to kill people, so i quit and now im in HR."
Geoff - "i have to make sure everyone is comfortable so i have these meetings with managers. After one about cultural diversity, the guy leans over to me and says "o i just got this joke in an email.'" (i cant remember the joke properly to tell it, but something about guy ritchie with-holding madonnas credit cards because when he told her to go out and find a little black number, yeah etc)
All of a sudden i feel nervous and sick. I cant wait for the next week and a half to be over (hopefully with my work being done.)
If anyone has any art they like or an artist that is considered 'controversial' id really really appreciate it if you could tell me their names, you'd be helping me pass my first year.
o yeah 16th december lloyds apparently, but this wont happen as EVERYONE will have filled it out, theres like 16 facebook groups about it...not 16 i said 16 before so its in my head now. "the voice inside my 'eeeeeaaaaaaad."
"I hate this city."
senses fail?
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
"I'm a poor student for goodness sake. How much do you want?"
My insurance company are not going to give me a new phone. I paid £50 to send off the letter and I'm paying £17.50 for a Sim card. My dad tried out lots of unblocked phones for me to use, but stupid 3, you need a specific 3 phone for a 3 Sim card. So i have to reply on crappy credit (unreliable) and a crappy nokia (very unreliable)
My extra special friend has stayed with me the past couple of days, i gave them my ticket to go back home and they got fined £31 pounds for not having the accompanying young persons railcard. Losers. Robins Hood's worst enemy was written in a text that they sent me.I'm in a radio class. Ive done all i can do which is not enough. All the mini disc recorders have been taken by film students, this means i have to use my day off tomorrow to get one and then record people and then spend my weekend editing a decent vox pop. This uni does suck a tad. I also have 2 major essays to do, a blog to make, a video to start and finish and some shorthand to revise.
We have a shorthand test THIS FRIDAY. i am so scared. To be honest i have never felt this stressed out in my life. Maybe because this uni is crap and really doesn't know how to deal with students.
The last couple of days were stressful but good.
I went to aldershot ward. The Wallace family are cool, from Peru, i met Jared's sister Michelle again, i think she wants me to have a pizza with them tonight-not sure if i should reply to her text with a yes or a no I'm busy stressing.
I feel tired but not sick. I am actually looking forward to Christmas, this is not right.
I'm thinking of going to Thailand in June for 2 weeks and working with turtles. (Birthday present papa...?)
When i get down about uni or the people here, all i think about to make me happy is that
I'M GOING TO TRINIDAD IN (about) 9/10 WEEKS!
counting down the (approximate amount) of days
I want to go to roadhouse on Saturday with Lavanya, too much work, not enough money. I'm actually broke.
I probably (definitely) shouldn't have traveled home like every week (loser)
My extra special friend has stayed with me the past couple of days, i gave them my ticket to go back home and they got fined £31 pounds for not having the accompanying young persons railcard. Losers. Robins Hood's worst enemy was written in a text that they sent me.I'm in a radio class. Ive done all i can do which is not enough. All the mini disc recorders have been taken by film students, this means i have to use my day off tomorrow to get one and then record people and then spend my weekend editing a decent vox pop. This uni does suck a tad. I also have 2 major essays to do, a blog to make, a video to start and finish and some shorthand to revise.
We have a shorthand test THIS FRIDAY. i am so scared. To be honest i have never felt this stressed out in my life. Maybe because this uni is crap and really doesn't know how to deal with students.
The last couple of days were stressful but good.
I went to aldershot ward. The Wallace family are cool, from Peru, i met Jared's sister Michelle again, i think she wants me to have a pizza with them tonight-not sure if i should reply to her text with a yes or a no I'm busy stressing.
I feel tired but not sick. I am actually looking forward to Christmas, this is not right.
I'm thinking of going to Thailand in June for 2 weeks and working with turtles. (Birthday present papa...?)
When i get down about uni or the people here, all i think about to make me happy is that
I'M GOING TO TRINIDAD IN (about) 9/10 WEEKS!
counting down the (approximate amount) of days
I want to go to roadhouse on Saturday with Lavanya, too much work, not enough money. I'm actually broke.
I probably (definitely) shouldn't have traveled home like every week (loser)
Saturday, December 02, 2006
stress
just had my job interview, first weekend at uni, so much work, dorothy perkins didnt have dresses in my size, james bond thing on thursday dont know what to do arrghh.
My course leader is a PRATT. I have to go filming on monday, though they dont know what they are filming.
We finish for 6 WEEKS (YES) in 2 weeks and so many deadlines have suddenly sprung up. Bad uni, bad organisation, bad, bad people. Apart from my flatmates and the people i choose to hang out with i HATE the people. Hate em with a pashmina.
Yesterday we went to hyde park with the church people. Adam didnt go. Joel came late-i felt happier when he was there. Fiona went off with her bf.
Psycho-Blah and fat-blah were there, they were shocked to see me talking to people. Later they were with Billie so i pulled her away from them. A guy that looked like elijah wood invited me to a party "do you do journalism?" "How did you guess?" "Because you're thinking of fast answers to turn me down."
Chris Mann also asked for my number, i thought he was joking so didnt say anything, til he asked again.
Gordon Rollo was there. He's fit. He cheated on an old friend of mine called megan. she expected me to say "o sorry." But instead i said "well now he's horribly and grossly attractive."
This boy i met that goes to institute was dancing with his ipod on, the whole night he listened to Justin Timberlake, While they were playing slow songs and slow dancing, he was doing all those weird moves justin loserlake does.
Cate is going out with a boy called reuben i used to know when i was 16...smallllll world.
Also small world, when we went to see my uncle play last saturday, my friend told me she'd seen him play before in his band, Calgary 04. How strange.
My room is in a mess. I actually have no enthusiasm. Except for this job, met friends already though i might not get it.
Ok i need to go find a dress ad a date on the internet, then go to my room and watch garden state with subtitles because the audio doesnt work, while fretting about the amount of work i have to do
ciao
My course leader is a PRATT. I have to go filming on monday, though they dont know what they are filming.
We finish for 6 WEEKS (YES) in 2 weeks and so many deadlines have suddenly sprung up. Bad uni, bad organisation, bad, bad people. Apart from my flatmates and the people i choose to hang out with i HATE the people. Hate em with a pashmina.
Yesterday we went to hyde park with the church people. Adam didnt go. Joel came late-i felt happier when he was there. Fiona went off with her bf.
Psycho-Blah and fat-blah were there, they were shocked to see me talking to people. Later they were with Billie so i pulled her away from them. A guy that looked like elijah wood invited me to a party "do you do journalism?" "How did you guess?" "Because you're thinking of fast answers to turn me down."
Chris Mann also asked for my number, i thought he was joking so didnt say anything, til he asked again.
Gordon Rollo was there. He's fit. He cheated on an old friend of mine called megan. she expected me to say "o sorry." But instead i said "well now he's horribly and grossly attractive."
This boy i met that goes to institute was dancing with his ipod on, the whole night he listened to Justin Timberlake, While they were playing slow songs and slow dancing, he was doing all those weird moves justin loserlake does.
Cate is going out with a boy called reuben i used to know when i was 16...smallllll world.
Also small world, when we went to see my uncle play last saturday, my friend told me she'd seen him play before in his band, Calgary 04. How strange.
My room is in a mess. I actually have no enthusiasm. Except for this job, met friends already though i might not get it.
Ok i need to go find a dress ad a date on the internet, then go to my room and watch garden state with subtitles because the audio doesnt work, while fretting about the amount of work i have to do
ciao
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