even if you got down on your knees you couldnt make me stay

"stab my back, it's better when i bleed for you"
Im at home, james' friends...thats all i can say, strange . James is friends with kids i used to know from pirmary school, they dont even recognise me so i just look down and say "pass the cord please...hello james."
My parents are at a church thing, i was meant to go which is why i came back earlier, so just me, ma bro and my uncle.
"you wrecked my life, now im gonna have to drive all night."
James is going out, really missed him this week actually seeing as the last time we saw each other it was an intense brother/sis bonding thang going on.
Nereasha and i took huge mugs to shorthand, this girl who reminds me of leah gave us the dirtiest looks while commenting on us bringing them to a lesson. We spent the whole time laughing (quietly, so we werent told off)
i have nothing to write about, had a weird dream again last night, was in a room on a bed and the door opened, a girl looked down on the floor and started talking to a person sleeping there, then she pointed at me and said "well she better be worth it." So i pretended to sleep and she was trying to convince the person to wake me up. They kept saying no, though i couldnt hear their voice. After she left, i felt the edge of the bed move, so i kicked out my leg as if i was turning over in my sleep and the bed went back to normal. I then lay there with my eyes open until i was actually awake with my eyes open looking up in the dark. So im not sure if i was fully asleep or just kinda 'day'dreaming.
"Its amazing what you'll find, when you just open your eyes...
...now this wrong remains it will never ever go away"
on the subject of music i had the longest seeming dream once that hanson were in my house, and taylor and i were in my garden playing with a ball, and then they left in a van but said "see you tomorrow" and then i woke up and i was sooo angry! damn dreams.
im bored, ariege when you next back?